Saturday, October 17, 2009

final post


I'm closing down this blog. it just holds too many bad memories and I want to focus on moving forward to better things. bye

what a waste


I wasted so much time and money on that delsym experiment. all that I'm going to get out of it is toxic shite. that's right, I might not dook for a little while, but when I do it will peel the paint off the walls. the jalapenos and coffee are not easily forgotten. my farts require you to wear a radiation suit today, I can't imagine what the sheast is going to be like!
all dook jokes aside, the first thing I'm doing when I get my 401k is I'm getting a pet. this little apartment is so lonesome. I'll get like a ferret, or a rat, or something. if it's rats, there will be 2 and they will be female. the dude rats are assholes.
I was up so late last nightfinding out about cool websites on youtube. if any of them are worth while, I'll be sure to send the info along.

Friday, October 16, 2009

reverse cough syrup

delsym is reverse robitussin. it still makes you not hungry, but you don't trip either. the delsym makes everything stop, so I'm giving it coffee, jalapeno peppers and psyllium shakes. all things that speed digestion the right way. let's add some hot sauce and fight the delsym. I might be up all night fighting the delsym, but I can't just sit here. everything feels bacwards too. help, coffee!

stormy night


I'm stuck inside alone again. I'm going crazy in here by myself. nothing to do but bliggity bliggity blig. my digits will get damaged if all I do is blog my brains out! my mind is already cracking from boredom.

just in case

I'm trying something different here, so if I don't make it back, I'd like a certain few people to know they are appreciated. the list is not in order: my mom, shawn, katie, blake, gangsta joe, logan, rick, mike millard, david mesa, dan kepler, arianne fulk, robin smith, cindy shackleford, heather from pgc, brenda napier, janet pimm, john bush, cal klippel, eric terrell. if i skipped you, it's either because I just forgot and made my list on the spur of the moment, or you were meant to be left out.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

it's me-gol



I just had to do it! i don't know whether I like him with or without the hair, so I'll put both up here. FUNNY!!!

well...


i cashed my check, paid the electric bill and made a list of places to apply for a job at. sometimes it seems that there is just no place left for poor andy. it's not that i feel particularly bad, it's just that i feel i'm kind of cursed to sit here and be useless. i don't know what to do! I have to get groceries still and to tell the truth, you know what will probably make it's way into my basket. anyway, I'll eat lunch first and wait until after 6 to start it up just to make sure that nobody's going to call me and that arkron won't come knocking on my door. my new music downloads are doing good, so at least I'll have something good to listen to. that picture of the monster this morning was already in my computer, so I'll go find another one and say blig you later.

still so bored


I got my 401k thing and my check from george dahl, so I'm just killing some time until I go take care of that and the electric bill. I've also got to get some groceries at the store, so I might as well do that too while I'm out. I still want to go make fun of the doctor at lakeside's emergency room again. I was thinking about it in my sleep. like... I should pretend to be on drugs again and make fun of dr. rat-fink phd. tell him he looks like steve buscemi and that his freemason's iron cross on a hemp necklace isn't as cool as he thinks it is. I can't help but think about getting more robitussin and having another wild time in brain-land, but I also am oh-so tired of that too. i'll just find a picture and say blig you later.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

i wonder if there's a posts per day limit?


I'm bored. I've heard viking metal, pirate metal, melodic death and speed. I've seen alex jones michael tsarion and david icke's entire filmography. did you know that a person can get bored with porn? I am! does brad neely have any new videos? now you don't have to look because I already seen them all! I don't want to guess how many movies I've seen. new world order freemason this and luciferian illuminati that! if it's got aspartame fluoride and mercury in it, then it must have high fructose corn syrup too. video games bore me to tears and I don't get any pleasure from youtube anymore. I know google video's entire inventory and what you can and can't watch on watchmovies.net. care to guess at how many websites i've been to? me either! I've played and gotten super stuck in every quest for glory and pretty much thrown my life away to final fantasy. I've had damn near every kind of beer and if I drink any more liquor I'll only get sicker. I can probably tell what brand of robitussin you've got just by smell AND what other ingredients are in it. I can tell if it's dextromethorphan polistyrex by putting it in a clear container and shaking it to see if it sticks to the sides. I've smoked almost every kind of pot and some things that are not. do you know that no snooze, no-doz, and ultra pep pak all give you a different feeling? I can tell them apart! ever gotten high on benadryl? dramamine? know that benadryl and sleeping pills are the same thing and that they feel a whole lot like nutmeg? I do. I'm tired of it! there's got to be something for me to do! something more rewarding than just sit here and get dumber by the moment! PLEASE HELP!!!! I"M GOING INSANE!!!!!

andy, a 40, robitussin!



well, yesterday morning was going ok. I was feeling good listening to smooth jazz and I even threw out all the old bottles of every type. while I was doing that, there was heavy construction equipment working outside. it was loudand I was kind of wondering what was going on. meanwhile inside my brain, the voices that the doctors talked about were ramping up and gaining volume. at first I just drank my coffee and didn't worry about it. the jazz was really good and they had joel van beuren announcing. the female voice announcing what jazz was playing was a little soothing too. I said "why don't I give one of these video games a shot?" I tried a few different ones. the warcraft game was new and confusing, ok, something else. how about prince of persia 3? the prince didn't have much brain power and couldn't solve the simplest puzzle. I said "final fantasy is easy, I'll play that." I put in #10 and all of the menus went wonky and I couldn't pay attention to the cinematics. sometrhing was wrong. I thought that I had permanently damaged my brain because of 1 too many robitussins. I decided to go contact my parents because they should help me. I was totally paranoid and had given up all hope of returning to normal at this point because I couldn't play final fantasy and I couldn't play guitar. I showed up at 98 east ave. to be greeted by the dog and my dad was patient with me. I explained that my fear was that I had permanently damaged my brain because things were getting crossed and mangled and worse all the time. he took me to the hospital and they asked it was like when gollum was taken into mordor to be asked about the ring. amid my un-intelligable babble they got robitussin and that I didn't know how much I took. sauron, the doctor with the iron cross that looks like steve buscemi was very tired of me and sent me to the back room. at some poit they detached all the cables which kept me from running back and forth to the bathroom in front of all the emergency room patients. my mom got there and eventualy I came down from the drugs and they let us leave. my mom made dinner for us and my dad went to his important meeting. we walked the dog and tried to watch a movie, but I was too tired. I was walked home with the dog again and warned that bernie might call me. THAT WAS ROUGH! i don't think I'll touch anything like that again.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

comfy apartment


it's a good place. filled with guitars and musical equipment. computer torrents anything I want to watch or listen to. my farts feel really good. my legs feel like jelly and my brain does what it wants. if you couldn't tell, I woke up from a nap and am feeling fine.

Monday, October 12, 2009

cleaned and healed

this morning was really rough, but I got through it. I tried to take advantage of myself and record a really sad song, but I couldn't get it off the 4track and all it was was A anyway. maybe I'll lift it later for a sample or intro. richard gave me lasagna and I should probably try to eat it. I cleaned up all of the mess I made in my apartment and filled my car's tires with air.

strange trial by tussin


I drank the super tussin last night. it was too much, I don't have any plans for futher dxm and I think it's best left alone. no more cough syrup for me, thanks. those demons can now be put to rest.. I'm typing this at 3 in the morning and I have a strong suspicion that richard is wondering what's going on too. I think I' m hearing him through the walls.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

unemployed cough


I'm still wating to hear back from george dahl. I want to learn to work with the B800 unit and grout things and do tile. I will bust my ass for george dahl if he accepts me. I will put in long days doing hard work. I want to work hard even if it's just cleaning construction sites, I will make them the cleanest. Ihave taken 5 oz of delsym and 8 oz of rmsc. reality is bendinng for me.i should play a video game at this point and try to enjoyit. nothing to do but robotrip till he calls me.

hamlin party and real jesus



last night was logan's birthday, so I went out to eat with my mom and got money, then drive for like over an hour to go get logan to bring him to rick's for a get-together. the one armed man was there with tom, the acoustic song man and his weird girlfriend who calls me smeagol. rick, tom and myself stayed relatively sane through the time there as we drank some beer and played lots of guitar. tom's girlfriend had this insane need to talk to me in the most disomforting way possible and the one armed man got falling down-getting up-falling down drunk. he probably opened more beers than anyone else and also spilled more beers than he opened. logan disappeared. he was eventually found hiding by the side of rick's trailer outside in the rain. tom, his girlfriend, and the one armed man went home and I also left at like 2 am. since picking up logan at like 9 last night I have been promising him to bring him on a pilgrimage to meet with real jesus (shawn). i have not recieved any answer from him or rick (who's living room I left him sleeping in) about whether or not this will happen. the other matter to contend with is my plentiful array of cough syrups in my room. they call to me in sickeningly sweet voices, but I may have to run a mission in the automobile.plaese, rick, give me a sign!

Friday, October 9, 2009

incendiary motivation




I've been lighting digital fires under everyone's asses with caustic emails. let's sort the adults from the children here! everybody from the digressive jazz band chain got a message requesting a single jam session one-on-one, logan got a reminder to check my internet presence and I asked him how goes it. aslo libby the girl from craigslist got a steel gauntlet slap-in-the-face wake up call. I'm ringing hammer on anvil and calling all true viking warriors to my side! come out from your meade-halls and log-houses to heed my call and join me on the feild of battle!!!! TRUE WARRIORS OF THE WORLD UNITE!!!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

guidance


I was out riding today because I've been watching bicycle anime called overdrive and I thought of good things. I am a student of the world and my master is cosmic consciousness. I am also my own master and have to figure out what to teach myself.I've studied under other masters too. dan kepler taught me things, david mesa imparted wisdom, mike millard threw in his 2 cents and shawn coleman opened my eyes to a whole new way of looking at things. now I'll finish watching this movie and try to go learn something new.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

tired morning

I've been in and out of bed since like 3 or 4 am. get tired, go to bed, can't sleep, use the internet, get tired again. I must be low on potassium. I look like a nightmare. recovering has to be done.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

more coherent bligotry




ok, I went to the video game store today and got fucked by gwen. I wish that was literally, but it's financialy. 12 dollars for final fantasy 7. the 60 dollar game. she was nice though and let me try things out. then I did the roundabout expensive tussin route and saw charlie at his work. these pics were taken at mid day. I just went for a delsym bike ride and the only way I can describe it is that all of the words would sound too fem. beautiful... delsym does that.

crazy idea fruition


it must have been the grape delsym that inspired me because charlie and myself are going to do a puppet show. I've got 2 puppets in the works and my tv box will be the stage. he wants more than his pitiful job and I don't really have a pitiful job right now. we seem to be two peas in a pod as he doesn't care if I drink cough syrums and I could give a fuck less about his beer drinking. we'll get together tomorrow and hopefully, he'll take charge of the plot element as I'm doing all the construction.

plans


well, I had a day today. I got some insurance stuff straightened out and found out that the jam shack doesn't want any more guitar teachers. hung out with charlie and luke, then came home to drink cough syrup. here's my old recipe for super tussin: 5 oz. delsym 1 jar robitussin pills 1 bottle rmsc. soak, chop and strain the pills to remove the non-drug elements, then combine all 3 liquids in a container. you can add coffee if you so desire. this produces 654mg dextromethorphan hydrobromide and 887.19mg dextromethorphan polistyrex. this is not for the faint of heart. please robotrip 2 days in a row before taking this to get your tolerance up as this could f your mind in ways that humans were not meant to get their minds eft. I'm pretty sure I used the 3 ouncer though as the 5 ounce is 12 dollars. 3 oz of delsym contains 532.323mg of dextromethorphan polistyrex. this seems much more reasonable because I would do this for a few days on end and am still alive and relatively coherent. the math involved in calculating these thing is astronomical! I can't believe I figured this out, but couldn't pass math class in school. I'm going to be making the latter when I get some money and if I'm still living on my own in a little while here. this is like a thing to do on thursday after sleeping a wednesday after work. get lots of rest and food, then HIT THE DRUGS!!! probably end up feeling like this picture.
anyway, I've still got to get my 401k and some money from george dahl, so blig you later!

Sunday, October 4, 2009

compiled dead-stone forest




these are the best of the pictures from the dead stone forest. logan's is bigger probably because I'm more used to my phone's camera. I just gave my parents an update cd of my music in exchange for dinner. webcam's up and running along with the button maker, so hopefully I'll get productive in the near future. I also contacted some people in craigslist about a "digressive jazz band to go off on tangents". I'll be going to the jam shack tomorrow to ask to be a teacher. if this was a bet, I'd put all my chips on the future and give that wheel a spin while rolling as many dice as I can find!

logan's break: complete










I dropped logan off last night to his brother's place. he can go back to his recliner and dogs. before we left, we made sure to have fun though. he beat one of my video games and I consumed enough drugs that I couldn't get fucked up anymore. here's the evidence of fun:

Saturday, October 3, 2009

caffeine night


I'm typing by the light of the screen while logan sleeps behind me. this is better than where he came from. there he was sleeping in a recliner. I tried to have brain fun tonight, but I didn't succeed. the robitussin and beer got into a fight in my stomach and neither of them won. my iron gut technique canceled them both,so I popped every kind of pill I could find in my cabinet including aceitaminophen and caffeine. now it's 4 in the morning and I'm still up because of the drugs, but I didn't get any recreational use out of any of them. lets see if the caffeine animation works.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

construction site cleanup yesterday.

yesterday, I worked for george dahl again cleaning up the construction work being done on an extension to a house somewhere in rush. 2 characters got nicknames and I've thought of a grand new nickname for someone else. brian that I work with is the B800 unit like arnold's model number in terminator 2 because he works all day with no breaks and no lunch. the vaccum cleaner earned the name of doctor rockso because all it did all day was suck up white dust. lastly, shawn coleman's girlfriend is being asked right now if his name cane be changed from tumbleweed to real jesus. this makes for some funny joke openers like: real jesus and fake satan were sitting at the bar one day... you get the idea. the other thing that happened yesterday is that I met a new co-worker, rich and got bit by his dog. rich seems cool, but I'm not sure that I like the only dog that has ever been mean to me.

logan"s back.

I picked up logan tonight and we went for a walk when we got to brockport. I was paranoid and logan was loud and using his outside voice. we came back to make buttons and listen to music.