comfy apartment

it's a good place. filled with guitars and musical equipment. computer torrents anything I want to watch or listen to. my farts feel really good. my legs feel like jelly and my brain does what it wants. if you couldn't tell, I woke up from a nap and am feeling fine.

cleaned and healed

this morning was really rough, but I got through it. I tried to take advantage of myself and record a really sad song, but I couldn't get it off the 4track and all it was was A anyway. maybe I'll lift it later for a sample or intro. richard gave me lasagna and I should probably try to eat it. I cleaned up all of the mess I made in my apartment and filled my car's tires with air.

strange trial by tussin

I drank the super tussin last night. it was too much, I don't have any plans for futher dxm and I think it's best left alone. no more cough syrup for me, thanks. those demons can now be put to rest.. I'm typing this at 3 in the morning and I have a strong suspicion that richard is wondering what's going on too. I think I' m hearing him through the walls.

unemployed cough

I'm still wating to hear back from george dahl. I want to learn to work with the B800 unit and grout things and do tile. I will bust my ass for george dahl if he accepts me. I will put in long days doing hard work. I want to work hard even if it's just cleaning construction sites, I will make them the cleanest. Ihave taken 5 oz of delsym and 8 oz of rmsc. reality is bendinng for me.i should play a video game at this point and try to enjoyit. nothing to do but robotrip till he calls me.

hamlin party and real jesus

last night was logan's birthday, so I went out to eat with my mom and got money, then drive for like over an hour to go get logan to bring him to rick's for a get-together. the one armed man was there with tom, the acoustic song man and his weird girlfriend who calls me smeagol. rick, tom and myself stayed relatively sane through the time there as we drank some beer and played lots of guitar. tom's girlfriend had this insane need to talk to me in the most disomforting way possible and the one armed man got falling down-getting up-falling down drunk. he probably opened more beers than anyone else and also spilled more beers than he opened. logan disappeared. he was eventually found hiding by the side of rick's trailer outside in the rain. tom, his girlfriend, and the one armed man went home and I also left at like 2 am. since picking up logan at like 9 last night I have been promising him to bring him on a pilgrimage to meet with real jesus (shawn). i have not recieved any answer from him or rick (who's living room I left him sleeping in) about whether or not this will happen. the other matter to contend with is my plentiful array of cough syrups in my room. they call to me in sickeningly sweet voices, but I may have to run a mission in the automobile.plaese, rick, give me a sign!

incendiary motivation

I've been lighting digital fires under everyone's asses with caustic emails. let's sort the adults from the children here! everybody from the digressive jazz band chain got a message requesting a single jam session one-on-one, logan got a reminder to check my internet presence and I asked him how goes it. aslo libby the girl from craigslist got a steel gauntlet slap-in-the-face wake up call. I'm ringing hammer on anvil and calling all true viking warriors to my side! come out from your meade-halls and log-houses to heed my call and join me on the feild of battle!!!! TRUE WARRIORS OF THE WORLD UNITE!!!

guidance

I was out riding today because I've been watching bicycle anime called overdrive and I thought of good things. I am a student of the world and my master is cosmic consciousness. I am also my own master and have to figure out what to teach myself.I've studied under other masters too. dan kepler taught me things, david mesa imparted wisdom, mike millard threw in his 2 cents and shawn coleman opened my eyes to a whole new way of looking at things. now I'll finish watching this movie and try to go learn something new.

tired morning

I've been in and out of bed since like 3 or 4 am. get tired, go to bed, can't sleep, use the internet, get tired again. I must be low on potassium. I look like a nightmare. recovering has to be done.

more coherent bligotry

ok, I went to the video game store today and got fucked by gwen. I wish that was literally, but it's financialy. 12 dollars for final fantasy 7. the 60 dollar game. she was nice though and let me try things out. then I did the roundabout expensive tussin route and saw charlie at his work. these pics were taken at mid day. I just went for a delsym bike ride and the only way I can describe it is that all of the words would sound too fem. beautiful... delsym does that.

crazy idea fruition

it must have been the grape delsym that inspired me because charlie and myself are going to do a puppet show. I've got 2 puppets in the works and my tv box will be the stage. he wants more than his pitiful job and I don't really have a pitiful job right now. we seem to be two peas in a pod as he doesn't care if I drink cough syrums and I could give a fuck less about his beer drinking. we'll get together tomorrow and hopefully, he'll take charge of the plot element as I'm doing all the construction.

plans

well, I had a day today. I got some insurance stuff straightened out and found out that the jam shack doesn't want any more guitar teachers. hung out with charlie and luke, then came home to drink cough syrup. here's my old recipe for super tussin: 5 oz. delsym 1 jar robitussin pills 1 bottle rmsc. soak, chop and strain the pills to remove the non-drug elements, then combine all 3 liquids in a container. you can add coffee if you so desire. this produces 654mg dextromethorphan hydrobromide and 887.19mg dextromethorphan polistyrex. this is not for the faint of heart. please robotrip 2 days in a row before taking this to get your tolerance up as this could f your mind in ways that humans were not meant to get their minds eft. I'm pretty sure I used the 3 ouncer though as the 5 ounce is 12 dollars. 3 oz of delsym contains 532.323mg of dextromethorphan polistyrex. this seems much more reasonable because I would do this for a few days on end and am still alive and relatively coherent. the math involved in calculating these thing is astronomical! I can't believe I figured this out, but couldn't pass math class in school. I'm going to be making the latter when I get some money and if I'm still living on my own in a little while here. this is like a thing to do on thursday after sleeping a wednesday after work. get lots of rest and food, then HIT THE DRUGS!!! probably end up feeling like this picture.
anyway, I've still got to get my 401k and some money from george dahl, so blig you later!

compiled dead-stone forest

these are the best of the pictures from the dead stone forest. logan's is bigger probably because I'm more used to my phone's camera. I just gave my parents an update cd of my music in exchange for dinner. webcam's up and running along with the button maker, so hopefully I'll get productive in the near future. I also contacted some people in craigslist about a "digressive jazz band to go off on tangents". I'll be going to the jam shack tomorrow to ask to be a teacher. if this was a bet, I'd put all my chips on the future and give that wheel a spin while rolling as many dice as I can find!