worthless and hopeless

I broke my computer screen at work today and almost got fired because of it. I don't want to do anything. it's a warm sunny day and I don't want to go outside. don't want to play guitar. barely even want to write my blog. I see no hope of getting out of this terrible life that I've destroyed for myself. wake up, work, go home to almost nothing, sleep, repeat. this is what hell is.